May 30, 2009

Take these fears
Take this heart
Don’t let me die
I need to take part
In your heavenly kingdom
Which is so close yet so far
Bring me into freedom
Take me from this ash and char

I need your Holy Spirit
Please be my friend
I don’t need merit
I just need your hand
Keep guidance upon me
Keep your Spirit within
Your Will is to be
My food when prosperity grows thin

Take these fears
Take my heart
Make it clean so in your good plan I can take part

Psalms

May 27, 2009

One of the books that most inspires me is Psalms. Davids poetic and heartfelt words express some of the anguishes, praises, and thanks in me. I really feel comfort from these psalms. If you need comfort or inspiration for praise, look to the psalms. “Sing to the Lord a new song. Sing to the Lord all the earth.”

I went outside to find a sound.
And can you guess what I found?
I found the birds!
I found the birds!
And do you know what these birds said?
“Praise God!” “Praise God!” their birdsongs said.
At least that’s what I seem to think.
Do their songs and praises sink?
No they rise into the sky!
They go rise to the heavens way up high!
The clucks of chickens go to and fro.
Their random sounds come from way down low.
But no matter what bird, what chick , what hen.
All their sounds, I think, rise to Him.
He feeds the sparrows.
He loves the birds.
Their “praises” inspired these rhyming words.

I got home from my trip yesterday. I have observed my garden’s growth today. Berries are ripening, the radishes have gone to seed, and the weeds have gone crazy! Just goes to show, if you leave a problem alone for long enough, it will probably get worse. Leaving a problem alone is different from surrendering it to God. Happy gardening! Jesus is Lord of all Creation!!

Sometimes I get attacked by lies in my mind. I know they’re not true. Some of them are horrible. I, many times, try to argue against them using logic. But this isn’t the way to go. I fail alot. I can recall one instance where I thought I was doomed. I have to cry out to God then, tell Him to take control. Now I realize, I have to surrender it to Him first. Let him take care of it. This doesn’t mean ignore it. Although sometimes it does seem alot like it. (people tell me to ignore things all the time, and sometimes I should) I need to let Him take control.

unselfish

May 27, 2009

I can’t really a remember when I was really selfless. I haven’t done anything like laying down my life for someone. But then again… laying down your life does’t always mean dying. It could mean giving your life in service instead of enjoying it yourself, “dying daily” as BJ calls it in “I Would Die for You”. I have given up little things like food, turns for a game, time. Though not nearly enough. I need to start doing it more. We all need to pray to God to give us selflessness and a spirit of service. His Holy Spirit cn help us. Praise God!

surrender it

May 10, 2009

I confess  that until this year I did not fully act out, possibly I didn’t understand, the process of surrendering everything to God and God alone. I still don’t fully. I’m still a work in progress. God knows that! When I got attacked , in my head, or by temptations, I would try to deal with it on my own to much. And I do have to do something to act. But we have to trust it to God to do the rest once we’ve done what we can. Really the first prominent time I remember surrendering to God was in youth group worship. Finally just bowing to Him, or His presence, and surrendering. Well that’s all the time I’m gonna take up! Bye! 

SURRENDER…. if you don’t you’ll flop like a dying  fish out of water

If there’s one thing that constantly block’s my view of God. It is guilt of sin. If a thought comes to mind about something bad or just a tiny bad thing is said it seems like I can’t get over it for hours! We’re supposed to be sorry for sin but as Christians we have to realize that we are forgiven by God. I seem to have trouble grasping the view of a God who forgives ALL things. This notion, however is extremely wrong, as His mercy endureth FOREVER. NO MATTER WHAT HE LOVES US. NO MATTER WHAT. I’ve always acknowledged this, but recently I haven’t been acting like that’s true. This is changing quickly though, blessed be His Name! So long obstacle! God’s rolling that view-blocking stone away! Hallelujah!!!

When my dad first broke it to me that I was going to spend three months in Prague I was pretty darned confused. “But I won’t see my friends for three months!” I really thought was going to lose three months of my life to a boring semester in Prague. Little did I know…. a few months later I was reluctant to come back home. “But I’m going to miss my friends!!” I had made a few good friends and many great experiences. Not to mention I got to jump off a bridge just attached to a strand of ‘rubber bands.’ In the end I’m glad I went. glad I came back?…. possibly….. at least there’s Facebook.

Nifty blogs

May 4, 2009

So I have finally gotten a blog thanks to my writing class assignment. Not like anyone is going to read it, but Nifty!
Praise God! Now if I can only remember the rest of the assignment….